My body wants to put you down so I can stretch out. But I know the rhythm of my breath is helping regulate yours.
I want to go home and sleep, hand you into the arms of your ever loving daddy, but I know tonight the rhythm of my heart is helping regulate yours.
I know if you were awake and lucid you’d be asking for your daddy by now but this is where the depth of our connection lies. In the unconscious, the instinctual need. Tonight you need me. Physically. Somehow the synapses and circuits and bio-chemical fireworks of our bodies anatomically dance to the same beat. Two puzzle pieces, locked in place. Two working parts of the same machine. The common goal is to exist in the privilege of tonight. To just hold one another and hold on lovingly tight.
The gentle light that emits from your soul dances across the air coming back to rest on the tips of your golden hair and together we glow in tender love.
So tonight I ache.
I am exhausted and I want to go home. But tonight you need me and honey, I have always needed you.
My body is empty, my heart is full.
Together. As we were made to be. Existing in the privilege of tonight.
Our precious Bumble Bede was admitted into ICU earlier today. It was an extremely difficult night.
We love him deeply.