I know it’s been a while. We have been busy living the highs and the lows and basking in Bede’s persistent glow. He has been growing, nourished by our deep love and with an easy happiness that comes from being in your context.
Over the last couple of months we have had some beautiful times spent in the glowing sunshine, laughter wafting through the coastal air, sipping strawberry lemonade, feeding dolphins, dozing in the gentle southern sun and snuggling into the comfort of home. Wishes have been busy coming true. We have also had some extremely difficult times, especially over the last 3 weeks as I held his lifeless body to my own watching his heart rate drop and calling for help.
I have been putting off posting until I had the space to give the joy all the room it deserves and I do not have that in this moment. Bede is busy and so then are we as he makes his latest come back. I suppose I have also been putting off posting until I really knew what Bede wanted. From the lifeless boy we worried for to spending hours laughing last night he has shown us. He is fighting. He is undeterred. He is resolute. He wants life and all the wonder that holds and he is fighting for it.
Bede’s resolve is uncompromised, hope pours from him, his eyes glisten with promise and love and his inner joy that he has gifted the world with. His gentle tenderness is profound and unerring even as he scales the highest metaphorical mountains. He is no longer our infant son he has become our little boy. He is robust.
This post is me once again laying myself at your feet and humbly asking all those of you who have followed his journey to please get behind him today. He has another MRI. He has pulled some miracles out of his hat over the last few weeks. From nearly being sent home to die to the tumour possibly and miraculously getting even smaller without the chemo to his spinal cancer possibly taking off. There is a lot riding on today. We are in limbo today waiting to find out if we are approaching end stage or if we are able to keep on making wishes come true. (Melbourne you are in our sights!)
We are tired and we still need to wrap him up in goodness. Today any love, positivity, hope, sunshine, good vibrations, joy, belief you could send Bede’s way are really needed. Our gratitude to each of you runs deep.